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 The Bossy Letter R 
  
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		 
            (phrase from my son, David, who has autism) 
 
			
			
			
			
			
			
			
			
The bossy letter R will turn you crooked, 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
just when you were sure your goose 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
was merely cooked.  Rouse you  
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
from sleep, ramp up the music, rev 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
the engine.  Sentence you  
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
to hard labor.   Dice your zucchini 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
into ratatouille.  Reductive.  
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
Not afraid to be ridiculous.  
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
It can turn picks to pricks, pigs  
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
to prigs, bees to beers.  Don't look 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
for recompense.  Recreational 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
drugs optional.  Add rum. 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
Relax and roll with it.  But 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
beware; on some dark night, it'll 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
hot wire your cat, tuning its motor,  
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
start it turning:  rrrrrrrrrrrr. 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
 
  
Live
or Evil, Rats or Star 
  
What happened when you renamed meander? 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
Did the sauce fail to thicken in the kitchen? 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
I thought if I refused to abridge my grievance, 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
the brigade would come for me.  You may think  
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
there are no taxes in Texas, but you're
wrong. 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
I'd trade all my atlases for one small sack  
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
of sea salt.  Who rates
our tears? 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
The more I grieved, the more my life diverged. 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
Hush.  Slow owls are sleeping in trees. 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
Who doesn't have a hatred of dearth? 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
I use a slate to write my tales,
this prose, 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
while spores of mildew scatter widely.  Do 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
you know Rye, New York?  If you juggle 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
sacred,
you'll get scared.  Deal 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
can lead to lade or dale.  Or end up 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
dead as lead.  It's all in the toss, 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
the tumble:  straw or warts, pins 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
or snip,
peek or keep.  The tide can
turn 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
to edit,
in the blink of an eye.  Which  
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
will you choose:  heart or earth? 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
 
 
		
		
		
		
		
		
		
		 
The Paper Clip 
  
Two u's, standing at attention. 
A couple of mouths 
with a jones for paper. 
A thin slip of twisted  
wire.  A bend in the
silver, 
brass, or candy striped creek. 
Not hard-wired  
for permanence 
like the staple, 
the brisk click  
wedding 
one sheet to another, 
the paper clip's more 
for dating, casual 
one night stands.   
Although afterwards,  
sometimes a mark 
remains, a faint scar, 
a thumb nail indentation,  
of what once was, 
and now is, no more. 
  
  
The Last Painting 
  
            Arshile Gorky Retrospective, Philadelphia Museum of
Art 
  
I'd always seen his name wrong, Ashile, not Arshile, 
missed the "r completely, didn't see the demarcation 
of its black arc breaking up the greasy softness of "ah"
and "sh." 
I didn't know about the studio fire that destroyed ten years'
work, 
the cancer that smoldered in his gut, the marriage that went
up 
in flames. So he did a painting called "Agony,"
reds flickering 
into browns, then a series of smudged grisailles: "Charred
Beloved." 
About art, he said, "I don't like the word "finish,"
painted "The Limit" 
just before he reached it, took the rope, its oval mouth like
one 
of his biomorphic shapes, placed it around his neck, stepped
off the chair.  
	
	
	
	
	
	
	
	 
 
	
	
	
	
	
	
	
	 
		
			
				
					 
				 
			 
		 
     
	
 
Barbara Crooker's books are Radiance,
winner of the 2005 Word Press First Book Award and finalist for the 2006
Paterson Poetry Prize; Line Dance (Word Press, 2008), winner of the 2009
Paterson Award for Excellence in Literature; and More (C&R Press,
2010). Her poems appear in a variety of literary journals and many anthologies,
including Good Poems for Hard Times (Garrison Keillor, editor)(Viking
Penguin) and the Bedford Introduction to Literature. 
 
	
	
	
	
			
			
			
			 
			
			
			
			
			
			
			
			  
     
 
 
 
  
   
   
     
 
  
          
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