After Tammy Faye Bakker's Last Television
Interview
Old women
across America dreamed of wingless Tinkerbells illumed by the lustrous sheen of fervent
prayers. They dreamed of ancient cats
swaying in the warmth of heater vents and Michelangelo painting his fallen face
into the grip of Saint Bartholomew's hand.
They dreamed until at last through the open square of their dreaming, a
green lawn dotted with grey stones appeared, and on the crest of a distant hill
a backhoe sputtered to life.
Mucuna
Dust takes
dictation one dead cell at a time
across the
fuzzy flats of ceiling fans
and the
snowy crests of shelved books.
Skin,
fiber, spore—these are what dust records,
and
if I leave open a window or door,
pollen
from pines, African sands.
Now the
sea bean in the bathroom has a stubbly beard.
I scrape
its brown belly with the edge of my thumb.
A cat, a
child, a former self. Animate to
inanimate.
Matter to
after-matter. Even a bean can tell you
this,
poised on
a granite countertop,
its pith
petrified to the hardness of rock.
On Learning of the Death of a Former Student
I
remembered the space where he sat but not him.
He shared
a desk with a beauty who did not know
she was
beautiful. In front of him was the
student
with
nystagmus. Then the guitar-playing
Christian
and the
blond whose world was wound with worry.
When I
heard the news I went back to my grade book
and found
his name: C plus, B minus, D, zero.
He
failed. No face. No image.
No history.
But
beneath my desk, in a stack of old essays, I found his.
The topic:
Something Important. His was a fishing story.
Sunrise on
the lagoon, the sky spreading pink and orange
like two
shrimp-stained hands rank with praise.
He'd
learned from his grandfather how high pressure systems
kill the
catch, how the sky bears down against the water,
stills it,
smooths it, smothers it, until every finny creature
is sent
scrambling to the bottom of the world.
It came to
me then, the conversation we'd had
about the
lagoon when dawn is on the water
and you
realize the hiss you hear isn't jacks
ravaging
bait fish or rain or wind, but simply the sound
of the
ocean breaking through the trees.
I
remembered him then: a stocky kid, timid smile,
downward
gaze. And I remembered what I told him.
"That's it!" I said. "That's important. Write about that."
Mule Skinner's Blues
We are
both drunk, thigh to thigh.
He strums,
I chord.
We ramp-up
to 4/4 time, my fingers planted
in the
familiar G
—
three-legged dog
that
signals an explosion of sound so loud
the heat
bugs outside go silent.
He calls
this singing.
Mother
calls it almost dead cats.
When she's
drunk, she calls him
a half man. The arm, gone
since
Fallujah, makes him, to my eyes,
three-quarters,
then some.
But none
of that matters now.
Now we are
both full bodied and limitless.
I chord,
he sings, and no one
dares
fault him for the beat of his strum.
Mark McBride's work appears in The Southeast Review (winner, World's Best Short Short Story Contest), Subtropics, The Yale Review, and other journals.
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