from the living space, dabs each with careful eye,
in robins-egg blue and tulip red.
For the walls above the fireplace and sunken tub,
he hand digs the granite pieces, placing each in relation
to the next, moves us when the snow trickles
and wild raspberries set on, from the city into a one-bedroom
cabin,
so high you can see the western continental divide.
We unpack onto hand-sanded shelves angled against the
A-frame walls.
Outside, the tar roof hidden among the Ponderosa pines,
whose branches bend and spring with the night wind surges—
those that rush our blood, keepmy sister nestled to my back
in our new built-in bunk.
Little more than a closet-sized kitchen,
no neighbors, and eight hundred square feet soon grow
too small to hold our mother's misgivings,
the songbird clock too slow.
Suppers turn silent, bedtime voices grow louder
and louder through the beams into our room. A year November,
while he is away, we gather matching coats
and all we can fit in the trunk, head east down
aspen-fringed roads
toward prairie and dormant winter wheat,
the scent of pine in what we take.
WHITE LICHEN MOTHS ON MESHOPPEN CREEK
They flutter in spotlights of sun beneath eastern hemlocks.
Their shadows tag ripples of water, daredevils,
nearly dip their dusted wings, and only ten feet
downstream
winter's melt falls, has fallen for so long, so hard over
the edge
onto the flat rock below, holes have formed, one perfect
for plunging our bodies and we do, over and over,
a little less startled by the cold each time. The water,
warmed ever so slightly by our play, streams back
into the pool, our eyes level with the slippery moss.
Above us, the small cloud of moths gathers
in this time we call September,
in clusters, four-leafed clovers, bleached, and small
as the sky divers in white at the air shows
we watched at the shore. From cocoon
to the first open wing of July, the white lichen moths
seem to know nothing of what they are not. I would catch
them with my eyes as they darted like a game or survival
in and out under ledges of bluestone along the bank,
four or five, way below the shade of hardwoods
that gives the conifers life. Alone, the last moth would
vanish,
like a sleight of hand, in the measured closing of the
day.
Claire McGoff lives in Silver
Spring with her husband and six children. She has been a member of the Writer's
Center for several years, participating in a number of workshops, including
personal essay, memoir, and poetry.