The Innisfree Poetry Journal
www.innisfreepoetry.org
by Margo Solod
WHY IT IS ALWAYS THE SAME Your mother appears--angry, manic, a red wine stain spreading across the page. Your father stands near the edge, away from the mess, never coming quite close enough to the bed to see your next-door neighbor stealing your childhood. He's your excuse for the pain spilling over each Us, every I and You in the poem no matter where or how carefully they are placed on the page. Men in your poem tread lightly on the surface, women tear edges, chew margins. Someone is always leaving the story in a rage, losing her place, her way, her mind, something vital left behind. Names change, someone better comes along but the poem, the poem is always humming that song.
FOUND You write, I've looked for you for years, as if I were the lost artist, run off with a writer who read like the definition of rage, like a street corner preacher from the Church of Perpetual Pain and Disillusionment. A small, homely man, glasses as thick as the bottom of a shot glass, he wore Drunk like a ceremonial robe wound around old wounds that oozed the bitterness of not enough-- It was clear enough to me he saw you as everything he thought he shouldn't have, and better still, a slap in the face of his father who stood at Wounded Knee, while his son sat on a St. Paul barstool. I know, he told me in his raw and bleeding poems; the strongest part of him. And now you ask if I remember you-- How could I forget; your painting sits above my fireplace, reminding me each evening of your disappearance, that last night when he came into the room and took your hand, pulled you off the couch, out the door-- you looked back as if to say I'm sorry, he looked back to say I've won and both of them were true.
FALSE SPRING Outside is colder than it looks, gray sky peels away in tatters under bare oaks. I peel a clementine, savor it as if it were the only warmth of winter. The basement glows with the light of new life pushing through man-made earth, fooled by a 40-watt bulb into false spring. I lose myself for hours in the bright red and yellow scraps of a piecework quilt, roused only by the dog wanting in. My old shepherd knocked delicately, one paw against the glass, this new pup hurls himself exuberantly at the door. This cabin can stand up to him, even to the silence of a winter storm that wraps us 16 inches thick in cotton batting, holding everything in and away at the same time.
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