The Innisfree Poetry Journal www.innisfreepoetry.org by John Surowiecki
La joie venait tou jours après la piene.
—Apollinaire
ProlegomenaAnd Helen answered: '' ' '' ' '' ' ''Love!'' ' '' ' '' ' '' —John Barth It's July, 1965. I'm with J.Z., my neighbor and friend. We leave a crowded beach in New London, Connecticut, for a universe of faded indoor-outdoor carpeting and archetypes on a mostly nautical theme. Of course, J.Z. is the biggest archetype of all, the betrayed and abandoned lover. He doesn't stop bemoaning the loss of stringy-haired Helen, short-order cook, cashier and the face that launched a thousand chips. A few days later he'll learn she’s in San Diego, betrayed and abandoned in turn and, worse, broke. Incidentally, this is a rundown and shabby miniature golf course, which is exactly why J.Z., his brother, S.Z. (just arrived in Vietnam), and I like it so much. Still, J.Z. and I don't linger. It's hot and there’s no shade as we progress hole to hole in a journey that drops us off exactly where we began it. 1 Labyrinth So much for love, so much for heartless Helen, gone for good, leaving behind a cloudy mirror, a roach clip, a dop kit filled with salves. He met her when she worked the counter at the Polish smokehouse; looped sausages hung over her head like trophies. Later, she found a job at Fish 'n Chips, closing early to have sex with him on the table where she had that morning breaded the scrod and scallops. By spring, there was no escaping her; she charted imaginary honeymoons from a mountain of atlases. By June, he had lost the place where love began and reached its end without seeing how he got there. She wanted rings and dinners, tattoos on her pale arms: a throbbing heart, a thorny rose, a golden apple. She wanted young men to fight over her along the line where the sea touches the shadow of the walls of Troy. 2 Wall (i)
Let her go away in the ships
—Iliad, III, 159
The old men of Troy praise she pays to those who speak to her, the genuineness of her courtesy. But the thing is: doom walks with her. Let her go. Don't ask her to return. She'll only give you grief. 3 Wall (ii) O wall, O sweet and lovely wall,
Show me thy chink. —A Midsummer Night's Dream
You can't go over this wall or around it: you have to go through it: a chink only slightly wider than it needs to be. We try again and again, failing miserably. Finally, J.Z. uses his club as a broom, drags the ball to the hole and rudely stuffs it through. 4 Loop the Loop He has to stop using love as an excuse for not living, for walking around with that stupid moony look. He has to hit the ball with enough force to generate the necessary centrifugal-centripetal energy; but each time he barely taps it and each time it strikes the rusted curlycue with a soft thunk and rolls back defeated. 5 Mermaid She unmendeleevs you. In her room she keeps vials, flasks, inks, potions, something like an atom-smasher holding rollers. Her bed is an eddy of sheets, hissing from salt. The blue of sea kings shines through her skin. She is the adventuress in a sinking house, entertained by cheap rings and bags of pot. She asks for warmth against warmth generating new warmth and has nothing more to say except how warm the warmth is or how quiet the quiet is or how mighty the night wind is as it shreds the café flags. Sea urchins are the coins of her mistrust; gulls chart for her a geography of exits. 6 Turtle It's self-contained and uses no poison; it's without guile or cunning and has only passive, defensive strength; it has to be convinced that it will prevail and when it does it continues on its way as if it didn't. 7 Scow Schooner Its sails are in tatters and dyed black from mildew; the bowsprit hangs limply to one side, broken years ago by a sub riveter drunk on Cutty Sark; its kind once dredged for oysters and carried salt hay down the Thames. The ball travels up one gangplank, rattles around the wormy hull, then rolls down another; the ocean is a circle of cement painted blue with carets of turquoise: chips peel off and are carried away by sudden gusts. If the sea is a woman to a sailor no wonder women seem lovelier to them than they are. 8 Dinosaur Its only flaw, really, is clumsiness: it's as if it had been designed for a less exacting world. How can it grasp with those little hands? how can it see with eyes tucked away into that yarrow head? how can it think with the sun boiling its brains and love boiling its blood? 9 Pirate It must be enough to be thought of as a thief of hearts or to have as your home every drop of liquid earth and reduce existence to a few shades of blue; and yet we can't see him as the son of Blood, a scoundrel surrounding a set of dazzling teeth: what she thinks he is can't be anything like what he really is: a minimum-wage jamoke with a collection of comics and a tattoo or two. The salt air has bitten his face with unseen teeth, his black wig has grayed, his ruffles are pitted, his saber has long ago been shown to be the stick it is. 10 Whale The ball enters the cathedral of its mouth, rolls through its intestinal plumbing and passes forty and odd vertebrae before dropping undigested from one of three assholes. J.Z. looks toward the graying Sound, suddenly interested in the high-school girls as they lick their ice-cream cones and yank at their cracks, shivering in the same vitric sun that real whales glance at when they die. 11 Elephant Resplendent in pearls and rubies, the rajah waves while the elephant offers a sidelong glance as if to tell us that it could, if it wanted to, toss this bearded chump out of his box, better yet, open the earth with its tusks and plunge him and all the world’s betrayers into its personal inferno; but we hear no avenging trumpet and no basso thud from those odd flat feet, only the hum of a biplane overhead pushing beer. 12 Windmill It's a giant all right with teeth as brown as anthropology and eyes as blue as a scallop's. Its waffled arms never stop spinning, slapping away J.Z.'s shots as if handing out punishment: hadn't he mistaken vertigo for love, hadn't he found beauty where there wasn't much to look at? He hits the ball into the alley outside the reach of the giant's arms and gets out while he can. 13 Schoolhouse She'd been a chambermaid and a laundry girl, a sous-chef in a paper hat slicing vidalias. She poured the honey over Miss Bee's apple pies and was trusted with money that wasn't hers. She cleaned out toilets at the train station. And she had honored J.Z. with her paper world: the pink tongue of Togo, the snake of Vietnam, the nugget of Surinam, the Congo blanched of blood with a river so wide they couldn't, if they were standing on one shore, see its other. 14 Lighthouse He wonders if this bulbless lighthouse, this squat tower of wormy slats, could send a beam to his brother in Vietnam, one beach and hot green sea to another, a simple message—We're alive, are you?— in the flicker of a new morning star just above the line where the world begins or ends, depending on your point of view. 15 Fountain [Broken] Another day and we might have seen lively rainbows, liquid parasols opening and closing, vertical rivers returning upon themselves, see-through snakes or ostrich necks helixing. Instead, we see green pennies, powdery and, with regard to wishes, already spent. Our coins thud and bounce and roll in clipped circles and when their dance is done, they bake in the heat, unreflected, unrefracted, undervalued. 16 Rocket There must be a planet where no one is exceptional or unlucky or unloved, where no one fears loneliness more than harm, where no one knows what it is to gawk at other worlds and wish there was a way to get there in a bucket of blue aluminum. 17 Garden It's a brick circle containing blue flag irises dug up years ago from a nearby swamp; they've long since taken over and are so tightly packed no weed can find a place to set down roots. The flowers are deep purple with a touch of yellow: so elegant, some might think too elegant, for a wild flower. We realize it's not a circle at all but the shape of a heart. 18 Clown After they roll into the cackling abyss, the balls begin their zigzagging odyssey past larva enclaves and worm resorts, ending up in the peeling white shack among putters and stacks of scorecards and boxes of stubby eraserless pencils. More irises announce our exit, white birches offer us some shade. We head for the boardwalk wall: the tide is in; the Sound has grown fat like a wrestler beyond his prime, lifting waves and dropping them with a grunt. The world smells like a cheeseburger. Notes Mermaid the adventuress in a sinking house From Proverbs 2 Scow Schooner a sub riveter drunk on Cutty Sark The course is not far from the U.S. submarine base. Pirate son of Blood Captain Blood as played by Errol Flynn. Whale forty and odd vertebrae From Moby Dick, CIII (''Measurement of the Whale's Skeleton'') that real whales glance at when they die From Moby Dick, CVXI (''The Dying Whale''): ''For that strange spectacle observable in all sperm whales dying—the turning sunwards of the head, and so expiring . . . .''
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